Post number one....My journey begins

Hey guys! I'm never good at keeping up with blogs.....but I have set a goal to change my nasty habits and hope that this will keep me accountable.....I plan on using this blog as a food/calorie diary and exersize tracker. I know, I know...there are apps and websites that will do all that for me. I just find that imputing everything manually helps. I've already implemented some good changes. I only drink water (even at restaraunts) and Shane and I plan on attempting a vegitarian diet again. I still struggle with fast food temptations (terrible....but sooooo tasty) and sugar cravings. Its actually amazing that I still want fast food considering that I have read many disgusting articles on the adverse affects it can have on a body. My weight has been a constant struggle all of my life. I've been on strict diets, low carbs, counting calories...counting was the most successful. It is a struggle at first because I do intially feel hungry all the time....and embarassment at how much I am actually over eating when I actually measure out my food. Right at this moment I am heavier than I have ever been. I have lost some weight (225 to 209-13) but am still very obese. I suffer daily when I look in the mirror and when I clothes shop. It is truely embarrassing to have to look in the plus sizes. At my skinniest I weighed 118. I was more outgoing and appreciated the attention that I recieved. I wore fitted and flattering clothes. I realized now that I was starving myself due to issues that I faced during that time period. It didn't take very long for me to put on a bunch of weight once those issues were no longer there. I let myself go in a bad way. I lost the confidence I had and shy away from social settings. My friends are polite enough to not comment....but I know that they noticed as I steadily gained. Well, the time has come to make a change.....Shane asked me to work on getting healthier and slimmer for our wedding next year and I plan on keeping that promise. If Bree Boyce can lose 115 lbs and win Miss South Carolina....then I can lose 90 and fit in to a sexy dress for my June wedding. Since it is almost 3:15 AM I'll leave it here for now. Thanks for reading....if you feel so inclined please leave encouraging messages! Good night!